I want to love,im just afraid?

Im lonely,i desperately want company,well not desperately but i wouldn't mind someone to share my life with,i just dont have any self confidence,im shy and and worst of all im mentally ill,well used to be,but that doesn't matter women see nutter and run.how the hell are people like me gonna get a chance if im labelled and to scared to appraoch anyone.why did my life end before it began,